Memory Lane 💖

Hiiii everybody! Assalamualaikum! Today you guys are going on an adventure through my memory lane. Are you excited? :3 Well, I sure am excited to share a little bit of my past. So I will be captioning pictures that I found and I love all these pictures so much and also these pictures are a lot appropriate and less embarrassing so sit back and enjoy :) 

I played golf when I was a toddler. That's pretty dang exciting now isn't it? 

Just me, Ummi and Kak Putri on Raya. I'm not sure on what year though. Sorry about that! 

Now, this is not me. This is my brother, Adham. I can't help it, he is too adorable >< 

This is also in Raya. Just me, casually receiving Ang Pow on Raya Morning :3 

My Atok and me :) I feel sooooo loved! 

A badass, I believe. lol no. 

Oh just me being cute and innocent. hehe :3 

This is a picture of tiny me and my mum in England. I was so young~ 

Me and my Atok again. I look like a boy, don't I :O 

I'm so innocent yet so mischievous lol :3 

So, In my big family. There were three kid who were born on the year 1998. In this picture is Meerza, Elfie and Me. Umm and both of the boys now live in Brunei. 

My Atok looks so gangstaaaa lol and there's just me :) 

This was in England, tiny me in my snow suit in my stroller. Cute. Haaaaah 

Me and my Granny, Ummi :) 

What's with the face, tiny Nashrah? hahaha x)

When I was little, I had this huge Minnie Mouse doll. My mom said that I called her " Ani " ~ Oh you know kids and their stuffed animals ~~~~ 

I have a secret, I actually invented thriller. Haaaaaaah nope. Again. What's with the face, tiny Nashrah? 

Last but not least, my family. My brother, my daddy, my mummy and meeee :D 

Well thats the end of this post! If you noticed there's not much picture of me and my dad. That's because he is the photographer all this while and most of these pictures were taken by him :D So If you want to see a Memory Lane : Part 2! And maybe I'll find more pictures of me and my dad. Let me know. So see you guys laterrrrr, Byeeeeee :D

Depression

Assalamualaikum!

It's 10PM right now. I want to tell someone what is deep inside me right now. Depression. Im so depressed. Very depressed. Have you ever felt this kind of depression that all you do is cry, then comes to the point that all you want to do is die. If you did felt like that then, you will understand what I am going through right now. 

My friends would think that I am lying because at school Im a very happy girl hanging out with her friends and she enjoys everything she does. I laugh a lot. A lot. I mean it when I say a lot and you should believe me. But all I feel is empty. Why? Because everyday there is just something that will make me feel stressed and comes to the point that Im hurting so much that I have to fake my laugh, my smile and everything. If its not because of my friends, there's always just arguments in my family about really small things that sometimes doesn't make sense and not even worth the arguments. 

I wish I could turn back time and make everything right. Sometimes I wish that I wasn't even born. ya Allah. I screw up a lot of things. I know. I am sorry for not being perfect like other girls, daughter and friend. I love being surrounded by the people I love. But today, all the people I love is not with me. Im probably alone most of the time, when Im at school, even when I come home from school, no one is home. All I have to do is stay home alone. I feel so empty. 

Today, the problem is pretty personal, I cant tell you guys the details why I am like this. Im sorry. Thank you for anyone who read this until the end and doesn't hate me and doesn't think Im some kind of attention seeker. Im sorry if this post is kind of disturbing and all. Thank you so much and I love you guys. Bye